Monday, December 4, 2017

Gambling runs out and ruin and ruin my life


A Hidden Addiction: Gambling runs out and ruin my life
so I run out of the society where the government does not accept it.


You see the smile that's on my mouth
It's hiding the words that don't come out
And all of my friends who think that I'm blessed
They don't know my head is a mess
No, they don't know who I really am
And they don't know what I've been through like you do
And I was made for you...
All of these scars across my heart
Tell it the story of who I am
So many stories of where I've been
And how I got to where I am
But these stories don't mean anything
When I've got no one to tell them to
It's true... I was made for you
Oh yeah, well it's true...
was made for you... 
Copyright: Phillip John Hanseroth


My story of Gambling as continued


Table Mountain is the only escape to have fun and get paid casino money in the valley of Fresno in 1999. Beginning I was kind of reluctant to be invited to shinny neon light of Table Mountain alone and always came with crowds. The crowding buddy said Earn Combs and avoid big losses Then as the feeling and sensing kind of right.

I get to used  the going there until driving alone is not a big deal and More when I sensed high so driving alone was special feeling and sensing is a way to self sacrificed just to touching a jack pot. Table Mountain was crowded all nights at all time. As I was owning to job that drive the next morning highway 41 West about 50 miles down each day to Handford, I barely miss the time because of the exciting that night and thrilling to win casino money and giving reward to  the dealer. It was fun. The more I give back, the more I will be winning. My Mazda 626 was crashed the right door where I was opposite direction of 41 Highway North. My head was smashed the steer wheel and the right door was bang inside and the glass turned to pieces. The wall of divider highway was stretched deep and pieces of debris cement was all over the shoulder lane. I was not on the left side lane that crowded with moving car but "find my silence" inside the Mazda seat. The motor police was approaching me and I was fine and the car got towed so I lied by calling my boss to not able to able to go for accident because of sickness  Then I rent car until Mazda got sold and bought another car.


As this incident I ran out and stay at Lemoore with Mexican Family that has horse ranch. I did not know that the new Indian Casino just ready to open. As I got bored at night as Lemoore was dark at night and foggy so my sensing high to hit a Jack pot in new casino was more chance to win. Black Jack was paid twice. Until my wallet was stolen then I the mail come to my brother house the identification card that was saved.  As It cursed me again then I was fired by my boss. So I ran out and far to the south to. I realize that "The Casino Took All My Money, Am I  Going Back For It?"


Story of Gambling Addiction
1.
The wiitness of story of Fall and rise of a gambler by proclamming and writting his book for Charity to his son. Justyn Rees Larcombe had it all. Around his beautiful home were the mementoes of success - the Sword of Honour awarded by the Queen when he left Sandhurst; the silver photo frames with the pictures of his much loved wife and family; the rooms full of the rewards of a City career. But Justyn had a parallel life: he gambled. Gradually he allowed it to take over everything, getting through a staggering three quarters of a million pounds - some his own money, some his wife's, an some belonging to the company he worked for. The crunch came: he lost his job; his wife left him, taking his sons; and anything that could be sold was - and then gambled away again. One day, he had no alternative but to go back to his mother's home and start again. Today Justyn has a high profile in the media, talking about the dangers of gambling and helping others coping with gambling addiction. 



2. Story of Gambling
 CNN News, "Gambling Addiction as Real as Alcoholism." June 18, 1999.
Millions of people like to gamble, whether it be casino-style games or lotteries. For some gambling is an addiction, a sickness just like alcoholism or cancer, that can destroy lives.
It is hard to cure a compulsive gambler, but there are doctors and counselors who work with people whose lives have been turned inside out by their quest to win the big one.
Arnie Wexler is a reformed compulsive gambler who now runs a hot line for addicted gamblers. He says gambling nearly destroyed his life. "I was running around at that time of my life wishing and praying I had enough guts to kill myself. I thought that if I killed myself and left my wife with $5,000 of insurance money and two kids in the house, it was the only way out of this mess," Wexler says. Experts say compulsive gambling is a real illness.
"The addiction to gambling is different in that it's purely a behavior. It's not an addiction to a chemical or substance, but it involves a similar process, in that it's a compulsive behavior that the person has no control over," says Maimonides Medical Center clinical psychiatrist David Yamins. Because there is no chemical or substance, gambling is an invisible addiction. There are no telltale physical signs, no track marks, no smell of alcohol. Wexler says that is what makes the compulsive gambler so elusive. "I'm gonna tell you that I'm recovered 31 years, and you don't know I just didn't come from buying 1,000 lottery tickets or calling my bookmaker before you walked in here, or I just didn't get back from Atlantic City an hour ago," says Wexler. What drives the compulsion to gamble? Yamins says it is the thrill. "They're holding onto the myth, the idea that they're gonna hit it with one big turn of the wheel, or one big play of the slot, that they're gonna correct all the trouble with their life."
Many compulsive gamblers do occasionally have large paydays. Wexler had a few, but that only made his problem worse. "I chased that big win every day of my life, figuring that I can do this again," he says. Even though compulsive gambling is a legitimate medical diagnosis, treatment is not covered by insurance. Society views gambling as a behavioral problem that people should be able to control. Experts say this policy is unlikely to change until society accepts compulsive gambling as a real disease.

3. The story of Gambling Addiction

My testimony as I chase my losses of Gambling and He lost his relation. As He hit bottom. That Night He decide that he want to change his life, his attitude and come back to hearth of worship. He signed paper that if he was banned to enter the casino he will be trespassed and go to jail. Baptist Church has welcome him his kids because God has transforming him with his renew. He is in music ministry and show 10000 reason guitar song as God on the process of transforming him. Romans 1:16 "For I am not ashamed of the Gospel because it is the power of God that brings salvation to everyone who believes.



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